Well, you all have been asking and I’ve been hesitant to start, just because it feels like “pressure”. If I start a blog, then I’ll be expected to write something. The writing has just been flowing lately, so I guess I’ve decided to blog! I didn’t mean to, it just happened.
What is my blog going to be about? I’m not 100% sure. It’ll just be the same kind of things I’ve been posting on Facebook. Things that happen to me or things I learn throughout this process of becoming who I was meant to be. Not who I think I was meant to be, but who I am actually supposed to be. The person that God created me to be! I’ll try to include a Silver Lining in each one, but may not if it doesn’t lend itself to one. I’ll probably repost some of the entries I have made on Facebook as well.
I am determined to come out of this divorce stronger and better than I’ve ever been before. I don’t want it to change me, I want it to enhance me. I don’t say that to be prideful. I say it because gold is still gold before it’s refined. The refining process just burns off the impurities and makes the gold the best quality it can be. I feel as though I’ve spent the last 13 months (or maybe 22 years) in the fire and I am starting to see the results of my refining. I know that a lot of changes have already happened in me, but the refining that I am most keenly aware of is in the people God has taken from and sent into my life. One significant person has been removed only to be replaced by 100 (I didn’t actually count, but I’m sure that number is low). God has placed me where I need to be in order to be with the people who are going to help me become ME. (That is a lot of “mes” in one sentence, but it is MY blog).
Thanks for the encouragement to start a blog. I don’t know where it will all lead, but then I’m getting used to that. A phrase that I heard very early on in this process this year has kept me going a lot of the time and it is “Start walking and then I’ll guide your way. Love, God” So that is what I’m doing. I’m just walkin’ and asking him to show me the next step. It can be painfully slow at times, but He always shows me the next step in His time.
Today’s silver lining: realizing that going through the fire is necessary in order to burn off the junk!